Scared with nerves and butterflies

This is me today meeting a new doctor to birth my third child. Kinda feeling like I have no choice but doing what I guess is best for everyone . YES it feels like the first days of school or test day are you ready or not .I have been lucky enough to have the same doctor,female doctor , at the same hospital in Saskatchewan for both my girls  as well as the two miscarriages I had too ( so theres comfort there trust ). Now I will be going to a new doctor ,a male doctor and that I am meeting for the first time today in Manitoba . Every once in awhile Dman will ask if I am ever scared of anything I will give him a list mice . heights to a certain point ,losing my kids , etc , etc but today I am scared of the unknown .
So this is me  @ 35 weeks
- Scared of whats to be
- carpel tunnel in hands so bad I can't sleep
-feeling of a baby's head down there (first time for me as well )
-Ready for babe (clothes , diapers , crib , bassinet , wipes  ,etc )
-Happy to have another boy enter our world
-Braxton hicks every couple days
-Tired
-Craving sweets like no one business
-enjoying every little kick or thump I am getting knowing I will miss them when they are gone .
-still can see my toes
-almost finished the new hospital baby book I make for all the kids but still have to make announcements and thank yous (have always had this done before babe comes so we will see)OK I am a planner.
-still need to get maternity pictures done .
-my bag is not packed yet


The sun is out and feeling like this is going to be  a good day . Although my nerves are right there sitting waiting for anyone to make a wrong move and I can have a river of tears I am sure .So here's to a day of firsts that hopefully a green tea frap can fix at the end of the day :)Also hoping that Miss. Izzy will not need her ears flushed out mama did her own DIY to help her out this weekend and hoped it worked . We are firm believers of ear candling but have only did to the Mr ,Dman at age 4 and myself , so had our concerns doing it too Izzy as shes so young but mineral oil was just not cutting it . I could barely handle watching her fall over anymore .We candled her bad ear and she has seemed to be doing much better .
Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for the both of us .